Am I sure I want to go down that road?

A while ago, I came upon “Lord of the Rings : The Return of the King” on television. So I watched it, like I always do. It is no secret that  I love those books and I think the movies are a very good adaptation.

But as I was watching it, I couldn’t help but second guess where I’m going with my life.

I write. I write fiction. Some of my ideas that I would love to write down have strong paranormal and fantasy elements.

But when the epicness that is the Lord of the Rings exists, why do I even hope someone will give my own ideas a chance?

Who will even consider my writing to be good enough to read, when Tolkien has written such a masterpiece?

Then, I logged in the social media. Among my friends, there are people who haven’t watched The Lord of the Rings. There are people who do not consider this to be a masterpiece. People who are stuck reading only a specific genre of books. People that follow authors who don’t edit their work. People who would never consider to even touch a book that belongs to a different genre.

These are people who follow modern authors like sheep. Who love books with no plot. Books with repetitive plot. Authors that are unfair to their readers. Yet, those books sell more than I can even imagine. Those authors make more money than I have ever dreamt of.

Why? I don’t know. I’d like to say it is a matter of good marketing. But I’m not so sure about that.

I want to believe that I am one of the readers that dares to take chances. I read outside my comfort zone. Not as much as I’d like to, but I still try. I try not to get stuck in one thing. I am in no way perfect, but I try not to become a reading sheep. And if I do become one? I want that to happen only after I’ve read as many genres as possible.

That said, I’m still not sure I want to ever publish what I’m writing. But when I think of all the other books that have been published, some way better some way worse than mine, I get hopeful. Hopeful that one day, one reader may pick up my story and think “Wow! This is a good one!”

P.s. I do not own the picture I used!